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M.A. is not MIA and so we gon party like it’s your birthday. So go shorty, it’s your birthday. We gon party like it’s your first day. First day of school on your bday and all your friends get to celebrate.

In the mix of all of this, mounds of emotions is swirling, unpredictable, confusing and inflexible. It’s scriptural. We are hard pressed, but not crushed. Perplexed but not in despair struck down but not destroyed. Fiery darts from enemies and friends– you never had to feel this and that is one of the silver linings to a life that never got to begin.

We say your name every day when we pray. But it’s rough the twins say we don’t visit you enough. Yeah we go on your birthday but that is usually the only day.

So for the future that something we will fix with the quickness. We know you not in that grave, it’s only a resting place. Still when I close my eyes I can see your little face.

Now you 12. Your little body capable of making little babies, maybe? Would you be grown or still my little girl? Would you be smart in math and showing other Hidden Figures?

What would be the song that we would dance to? Send me a song celestially that we dance to, sent directly by you. We will dance in our spirits and until I feel our hearts touch and that’s better than a human touch.

We all miss you and think about you. It’s not the same without you. Yeah we sing and try to move on, but how can you sing when the music isn’t on?

My heart sits here heavy with the weight of the world? Are you looking down, can you get a good view? Do I make you proud or disappoint you? Like a hapless dog, I case my tail to no avail. But we have blessings on blessings even when we fail.

As tough as it gets, we never quit! We shall prevail and conquer all. We’ve lost our joy and skies our gray, but we find strength in brand new mercies and look forward to the next day.

They say tomorrow never dies, so I close mine and look deep into your eyes. I find the strength to carry-on. You 12 today. It’s your bday. And we gone celebrate my little ladybug. You are not here, but feel this electronic, virtual, reach through the heavens hug. Hope you know that Daimyo always have and I always will love you.

#MayaAlisia 9/3/2019

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